Catching Up!

It has been forever since I updated last. So much has happened. For starters I left Travis and moved home with my parents. We now have split custody of Kaylee which has been super hard for me. I hate her being gone; I can't stand the nights she is away from me. I feel sick to my stomach every time she is gone, not knowing where she is, how she is, what she is doing or who she is doing it with. I miss her like crazy when she is gone and love love the moments she gets back home to me. At the same time I know she needs to spend time with her daddy, even if I don't like how often she is actually gone with him. I'm thankful we are starting this processes with her now instead of waiting until she is older, in so many ways it's a blessing for her to be so young, and getting used to having separated parents. I feel like it will be able for her to cope with when she is

 older.

Also Kaylee turned 1 back in October!! I can't believe how big my sweet baby is getting. Her birthday was so much fun for me. Travis had Kaylee for the morning portion of her birthday and I had her for the evening. Jessica and Ada Mae came down for her birthday and brought Kaylee her favorite present, a plate with ridges to keep from spilling, with a matching spoon and fork, she uses for almost every meal. I made Kay a chocolate cake with LOTS of pink frosting and pearl sprinkles. She really didn't love the whole cake smash deal, which was a little disappointing. She hated having frosting on her hands and refused to dig into the cake. I guess its good she likes to be clean!

Kaylee has grown so much! She is almost 15 months old! Kaylee can now walk, and says so many new words. I love being able to communicate with her this way. She can nod her head yes and no, and say yea and nononononono. She says a lot of other things to, but mostly walks around saying no, no. She started sleeping in a toddler bed, but didn't handle that very well and is now back in her crib for a while longer. I have kinda, but not really, started potty training her. She went through a phase where she thought pooping in the bath tub was fun. I bought one of those toilet training rings and started taking her out of the tub and putting her on the toilet if she was trying to poop. We successfully had 3 poops and 1 pee in the toilet so far. I really should try putting her on more often and see if I can't have her potty trained by the time Claire gets here! How cool would that be?

We also missed blogging about Thanksgiving and Christmas!! Both holidays were a BLAST for me. We went down to my Grandma and Grandpa Browns for a pie night Thanksgiving Eve. Kaylee was with her dad for his half of the holiday and wasn't able to come. It was hard for me not having her there to show off and to see her playing with Ada and Bailey. I hope things like this get easier; I have a sinking feeling it doesn't though. After the pie night I went home with my Aunts Becky, Mary and Karissa. The next day I had so much fun helping them prepare their own thanksgiving dinner. They told stories about growing up and I don't think I've laughed that hard in a long time!! Mary made the most AMAZNG breakfast burritos I have ever had, I could eat one right now! Then Jess and Damon picked me up at two and we picked up Kaylee from her dad and drove home to Pocatello to finish the rest of the day with my parents. Ada and Kaylee wore some super cute skirts we made them, with "thankful onsides" and matching hair bows. I love dressing the same and am looking forward to matching my sweet girls. (Only about 10 weeks left and we get to meet Claire!) For Christmas Eve we stayed home with our families which were lots of fun. The house was crazy with the kids getting excited for Christmas day. I got to play Santa this year for Kaylee and it was my favorite Christmas by far. I helped my parents do Santa for the kids and we revved a real miracle this year that was such a blessing for us. Travis picked Kaylee up at 8 and had her till 4 on Christmas. Due to Kaylee being gone we moved our traditional Christmas breakfast of Christmas Casserole and sour cream cinnamon twists to Christmas dinner, so Jess and Damon and Kaylee could be here for it. Instead we had stuffed French toast and bacon for breakfast. Jess got here about 12 and then my dad drove me to pick up Kay at 4. She had enough of present opening by the time I got her and didn't want to open her presents but loved everything I got her anyways.

Now hopefully we are all caught up and I will try to blog more often, but we will see how it goes!! One more thing... I chopped off my hair! I have always loved having short hair and it was such good therapy after leaving Travis to just chop it all!!